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What's in your trunk?
March 10, 2017
Hey! Congrats on making it to the end of the week! It feels like
it’s been a long week am I right?! If you’re week flew by well…..you’re
amazing, I’m jealous and please pass some of that good JuJu my way.
So, last week was a pretty heavy blog post. If you read it I
appreciate you taking the time to do so. I hope my story helped bring some
awareness to eating disorders and gave an inside look at what the mind of
someone suffering from an eating disorder looks like. I also hope that it
helped you be more aware of your eating habits. If you feel you may practice
disordered eating or you have concerns that your current dieting regimen may
progress to an eating disorder, feel free to reach out to me. I’m not an expert
but I can certainly relate and would be glad to listen or even offer
suggestions if you would like.
Alright, this blog post will be a little more light hearted but
hopefully still informative.
We’re already into March. Can you believe it? What the heck
happened to January and February? If you made a resolution for the New Year
have you stuck to it? If so, how is it going? I had two resolutions this year.
The first was pull ups….correction…1 unassisted pull up. I’m still working on
that EVERY.SINGLE. DAY. I still can’t bend my elbows on my own, meaning all of
my pull ups are currently assisted. It makes me angry because I have been
working on these STUPID pull ups since November and yah. Any ways…….I also
resolved to accept compliments. This one is difficult and I forget from time to
time but I have been making more of conscience effort to accept compliments
instead of giving people reasons why I shouldn’t be complimented. I have to be
especially mindful with my husband. I am so fortunate to have someone in my
life that tells me how beautiful I am every day and I am so rude about it! He
compliments me and typically I’ll say thank you and then tell him why it’s not
true. Or he’ll compliment me and I won’t even say thank you! I’ll just tell him
why he is wrong. What the what!? I mean, would he really have married me if I
was an ogre? Would he tell me I’m beautiful if he didn’t really think that? And
who am I to tell him what he sees? Oh Jennifer……..So I have really been trying
to just say thank you and move on. It takes a lot of tongue biting not to
disagree but I’ve gotten better. Ugh…why does this man love me. I’m crazy.
This past weekend I got a massage. It’s part of my new year new me
shenanigans. My goal this year is to start taking better care of my body. Its
not a resolution per-say, it’s like a subcategory of my pulls up and my
compliments ‘ish. I have the exercise and eating right thing pretty much down
but I’ll be 34 this month and not getting any younger. So, this year it’s about
starting a routine of preventative care and taking care of issues I have been
ignoring. I started going to the chiropractor to get everything aligned and I
am making an effort to get a massage once per month.
I was getting my massage this past weekend and was speaking with my massage therapist, who I love! She’s the best! We starting talking about what jobs we would really like to have. She felt I would be good at some type of fitness job or a psychologist. Maybe she thought psychologist because I’m a good listener but hell, I can’t solve my own problems how am I going to help anyone else with there’s? So obviously, I steered that conversation toward something in fitness. She said I should start small and do classes for new moms trying to get their bodies back. She then mentioned she would want to lose some weight and she tries but she hates squats and lunges and all the fun stuff associated with working out. So, to make a long thought get to the point, that gave me the idea to start sharing each month or a couple times a month different ideas you can use to start creating or further evolve your healthy life style. Even if you don’t like working out or having to restrict what you eat I’ll give you small changes you can make to ease into healthier living. If you are already on the health kick and you have it down to a science hopefully my tips will help add variety to your routine.
I was getting my massage this past weekend and was speaking with my massage therapist, who I love! She’s the best! We starting talking about what jobs we would really like to have. She felt I would be good at some type of fitness job or a psychologist. Maybe she thought psychologist because I’m a good listener but hell, I can’t solve my own problems how am I going to help anyone else with there’s? So obviously, I steered that conversation toward something in fitness. She said I should start small and do classes for new moms trying to get their bodies back. She then mentioned she would want to lose some weight and she tries but she hates squats and lunges and all the fun stuff associated with working out. So, to make a long thought get to the point, that gave me the idea to start sharing each month or a couple times a month different ideas you can use to start creating or further evolve your healthy life style. Even if you don’t like working out or having to restrict what you eat I’ll give you small changes you can make to ease into healthier living. If you are already on the health kick and you have it down to a science hopefully my tips will help add variety to your routine.
I want to focus this post on what’s in your trunk. Yes, you read
that right, your trunk. What is in the trunk of your vehicle right now? I don’t
have a trunk as I have a pickup truck but I keep a few items behind my seats.
For example, right now I have a bike helmet, ab roller, workout mat, 5lb
dumbbells, a spare set of sneakers, a jump rope and jumper cables. I mean the
jumper cables are just out of necessity…..i don’t use them for fitness. Or
could I????? Anyway, my thought is, If you surround yourself with fitness you
can’t avoid it, no excuses can be made.
On my lunch break at work I typically go for a run or a brisk walk
just so I can get away from my desk, clear my mind and enjoy the weather. On
days when it rains it would be so easy for me to stay inside, go to the lunch
room and watch TV, surf Facebook or flip through Instagram. With a few fitness
items in my truck I can create a 20-minute workout, as light or as intense as
I’d like, and do so in the covered parking garage. It keeps me from excusing
myself from physical activity. I also use these items when, from time to time,
the stupid card reader is down at my gym and I am unable to access the gym and
its equipment. With my weights, jump rope and mat I can create a good cardio
workout with light weights so I don’t have to miss a workout.
You don’t have to spend a lot of money on workout equipment either.
Just pick up a few pieces to keep in your vehicle. There are consignment shops
for exercise items. You can also use apps like Craig’s list and Neighborhood to
find local people selling their equipment.
If you can purchase a couple of lighter weight dumbbells you can
carry them as you walk around the park, mall or a local craft fair. Try to
incorporate something into every activity you do. In a few weeks, you won’t
even have to think about it! Plus adding a little something extra can add up to
a lot.
Here's a little glimpse....find the full video on the blogs Instagram!
It Goes a Little Something Like This
3 Rounds
30 Sec Jump rope
30 Sec Ski Hops over Mat
30 Sec Dumbbell Squats
3 Rounds
30 Sec Jump Rope
30 Sec Hops Over Mat
30 Sec Squat Press
3 Rounds
30 Sec Jump Rope
30 Sec High Knees to Hurdle Jumps
30 Sec Lateral Raise to Front Raise
3 Rounds
30 Sec Jump Rope
30 Sec Ab Roller
3Rounds
30 Sec Side Bends
30 Sec Sit Ups
The War with my Body
March 3, 2017
Bulimia Nervosa
[byoo-lim-ee-uh nur-voh-suh]: Noun- an emotional disorder involving distortion
of body image and an obsessive desire to lose weight, in which bouts of extreme
overeating are followed by depression and self-induced vomiting, purging, or fasting.
Warning Signs of Bulimia Nervosa
- Evidence of binge eating, including disappearance of large amounts of food in short periods of time or finding wrappers and containers indicating the consumption of large amounts of food.
- Evidence of purging behaviors, including frequent trips to the bathroom after meals, signs and/or smells of vomiting, presence of wrappers or packages of laxatives or diuretics.
- Excessive, rigid exercise regimen--despite weather, fatigue, illness, or injury, the compulsive need to “burn off” calories taken in.
- Unusual swelling of the cheeks or jaw area.
- Calluses on the back of the hands and knuckles from self-induced vomiting.
- Discoloration or staining of the teeth.
- Creation of lifestyle schedules or rituals to make time for binge-and-purge sessions.
- Withdrawal from usual friends and activities.
- In general, behaviors and attitudes indicating that weight loss, dieting, and control of food are becoming primary concerns.
- Continued exercise despite injury; overuse injuries.
This week is eating disorder
awareness week. I don’t usually recognize or even remember this awareness week
mainly because I don’t like to think about it. It isn’t until someone posts
something on social media that I am reminded and thoughts flood my brain that I
rather forget.
You’re probably wondering why I am choosing to write about this
week then. Why am I shedding light on something I rather keep in the dark?
Well, I started a blog. I started a blog to inform and help others. I can’t do
either of those things if I am not honest with you all and myself about who I
am, where I’ve been and where I am now. So here it goes.
I’m sure if you have been reading
the blog up to this point you have noticed little hints I’ve dropped about my
disordered eating habits. I haven’t spelled it out for you but today I will.
I think this must be one of my favorite pictures from my
wedding. It really encompasses how I felt that day. Strong and beautiful. For
those that truly know me, you know that it is a rare occasion that I feel that
way, especially at the same time. Looking through my wedding photos I see a
woman, that if even for one night, was comfortable and happy in her own skin.
Every day is a fight with my body and in those moments that we are at peace
with each other I hold onto those moments for dear life. Although I’m not at my
thinnest I am at my strongest and at my healthiest. Each day I look in the
mirror and I mentally tell myself one thing I like about my body, no matter how
difficult it may be. It’s a practice I took on a couple
years ago.
The daily war I wage with my body is not new. I have been
fighting this battle my whole life, practically. All through my grade school years,
K-12, I was teased, bullied, ridiculed, whatever you want to call it, because
of my weight. I was never a small kid and that made me a target. I was called
names, songs were sung about my weight, I was pushed, slapped, kicked. I was
the fat kid.
At my heaviest I was 210 lbs. Toward
the end of high school I actually found a diet that worked in my favor. I went
on a low carb diet and much to my surprise I lost 50 lbs in 3 months. I was
finally under 200 lbs and felt amazing. I felt like I was finally breaking free
of the prison that my body had been for so many years. I started wearing more
feminine clothing, I got my first boyfriend and the perfume lady at Dillard’s
finally asked me if I would like a sample! I was ecstatic. Unfortunately, that bit of confidence I had
gained was again trampled on when I got to college. Believe it or not the
teasing about ones weight does not stop at high school.
When I was 21 I finally left the nest and I moved in with a guy I worked with and a couple other roommates. My co-worker was a handsome guy, into his looks and was always sleeping with someone. I felt so inferior. I mean, I didn’t want to be cocky like him but I wanted to look like the girls he liked. I didn’t want him to like me, I thought of him like a brother so that would be WEIRD but I wanted to look like those girls. Those girls that get the good looking guys. Those thin, beautiful girls. I wanted to achieve the one thing I had been seeking for so long. I felt like if it could just be skinny everything would change. All of my problems would disappear.
My co-worker and I would go running together,
I started going to gym, it was great! I really started to see and improvement in my physique.
That just motivated me more. He was very much into his looks and always watched
what he ate. I thought he was the right person to follow so I picked up his
eating habits. I still stuck to a low carb diet but now I was incorporating
protein bars, lots of water and plain chicken. The more I worked out and the
more I limited what I ate the more weight I lost. The more results I saw. It
became an obsession. I became obsessed with getting through the day on as
little carbs and calories as possible. My body was once again my prison but I refused to see it that way.
As much as I tried to ignore it,
this new lifestyle was really starting to affect me mentally and physically. I
was restless and tired all of the time. I couldn’t concentrate on school which
caused my grades to drop. I had terrible mood swings but I was 135lbs. I
weighed myself every day and I still thought I needed to lose more.
One night I was in my room and a had
a shot glass of chocolate chips. I felt I had to hide them because if my
roommate saw me with them he would give me a hard time and I would feel like I
was disappointing him and myself. As I finished the shot glass of chocolate chips I
instantly felt this overwhelming remorse for what I had just done. I felt like
I had done the worst thing possible. How could I be so weak to eat those
chocolate chips!? What is wrong with me? Im never going to lose weight if I
slip up like that. So, I tried to throw them up. I hunched over that toilet
seat, stuck my finger right down my throat and coughed and gaged until I
finally gave up. I sat on the floor with tears welled up in my eyes from the
attempted vomit but I was numb. Did I just do that? Did I really try to throw
up the chocolate chips? It was at the moment I knew something was very wrong. I
knew I had to seek help or i would be a statistic.
I spent a little over 2 months in
therapy and it was there I was diagnosed with bulimia nervosa. Not because I was a binge eater per-say but because I saw full meals or occasional snacks as binging and in turn would do anything to purge my body of the "damage" I thought I had done. I felt like a
failure. How did I end up in therapy? How did I get to this point? Through
therapy I gain a bit of confidence back and I gained weight. It took a while
but I started eating full meals again. I started enjoying desserts again. I
started enjoying life again.
A couple years later I was in the
shower one morning and looked down. I saw my stomach and it brought back so
many memories of my childhood. How I had longed to be thin. How I would look at
my stomach in the mirror and cry, disgusted by what I saw. I knew I didn’t want
to be fat again. I had to lose the weight but this time I wanted to do it the
right way. I needed to be taught how to eat. I decided to join Weight Watchers.
I LOVED Weight Watchers! I loved
going to the meetings every week. Even if I didn’t lose anything I still felt
positive when I left those meetings. I was able to eat foods I liked and was
able to lose the weight. I felt in control. But, just like before it didn’t
take long before Weight Watchers became an obsession. It was my goal each day
to get by on the minimal amount of points I was allowed. There was even a period of
time I followed Weight Watchers and the South Beach diet at the same time. Not a good combination.
Once again I found myself feeling
restless and tired all of the time. I couldn’t concentrate and I had terrible
mood swings. I had also become obsessed with the gym. I was working out every day,
2-3 hours a day. My day revolved around the gym. I would have panic attacks if
I had to change my gym schedule and don’t even get me started on if I couldn’t
go at all. I was doing mostly cardio because
“cardio burns fat.” I got down to a size 4. I could see my ribs, hip bones and
collar bones. As great as that made me feel I only focused on what I still had
left to work on. My thighs were too big, they rubbed together. I still had
loose skin on my stomach. I had to work harder. I had to lose more.
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| My heaviest------My lightest------My healthiest |
In 2012 I had a reaction to
something I ate. I had developed a food sensitivity literally over night. As annoying
as it is, my sensitivity to certain foods and the reactions I would have were my saving grace. I think it was
my body telling me enough is enough.
Through several doctors visits trying to find the answer to my food sensitivity I found out I have a heart murmur. The murmur, while I may have been born with it, was likely caused by my disordered eating. I also have a very low resting heart rate. As much as I would like to tell myself its because I am so active, my eating disorder plays a big role. It was so low one time I was sent to ER. It wasn't until recently I discovered I could have gone into cardiac arrest. I have had cavities, not from vomiting as I only tried that once, but simply from undernourishment. I have destroyed my metabolism which wasn't fast to begin with and I cant even begin to imagine how much muscle I have wasted through under eating and over exercising.
Through several doctors visits trying to find the answer to my food sensitivity I found out I have a heart murmur. The murmur, while I may have been born with it, was likely caused by my disordered eating. I also have a very low resting heart rate. As much as I would like to tell myself its because I am so active, my eating disorder plays a big role. It was so low one time I was sent to ER. It wasn't until recently I discovered I could have gone into cardiac arrest. I have had cavities, not from vomiting as I only tried that once, but simply from undernourishment. I have destroyed my metabolism which wasn't fast to begin with and I cant even begin to imagine how much muscle I have wasted through under eating and over exercising.
Since that time I have worked very
hard on learning to feed my body well, accept and appreciate the body I have
and improve my overall health. I still suffer from Bulimia Nervosa but I work everyday on recovery. If you pay
attention you will see the signs. I am very hard on myself and I criticize my
body often. I don't take compliments well because my first reaction is disbelief. I don't like to be in the spot light for fear of criticism. Missing a day at the gym still causing me some anxiety. Going out to eat
or someone else cooking for me makes me uneasy because I can’t control
what goes into my food. When I eat certain foods I feel guilty and shame
myself. There are many days I look in the mirror and still see the fat girl. While I am not “cured” I am on my recovery journey. I don't think I will ever truly rid myself of the negative thoughts about my body and I will never be the thin I dream to be. That is not my body type. But every day I work on acceptance. Every day I work on confidence. Every day I try to find one thing I think is awesome about my body.
The best advice I can give is that It’s
important to find beauty in yourself and love yourself so you can spread that
love to others. It’s important to teach our daughters, granddaughters, nieces,
sisters, etc. that their bodies are amazing no matter what size or shape! Show
them, teach them, all the amazing things their bodies are capable of and they
are more than a body type. Encourage them to be active and exercise, not to
lose weight or to look a certain way, but for health and strength. Eliminate
descriptive words like fat and skinny. And finally, if you think a friend or
family member is suffering from an eating disorder or body image issues don’t
be afraid to ask them. Sometimes they just need someone to listen.
If you would like to find out more about Bulimia Nervosa or other eating disorders please reference the links below.
National Eating Disorder Association: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/
Eating Disorder Hope: https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/information/eating-disorder
ANDA: http://www.anad.org/
National Eating Disorder Association: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/
Eating Disorder Hope: https://www.eatingdisorderhope.com/information/eating-disorder
ANDA: http://www.anad.org/
Tips on how to stay hydrated
February 24, 2017
Welcome to another exciting post from Barbells and Boy
shorts. On today’s post we’ll be talking about my favorite Apps, how to stay
hydrated and people who can’t keep their thoughts to themselves!
(enter theme music here)
So, what theme music did you think of? Mine was very
instrumental and almost reminded me of the intro music for Love Connection.
Everyone knows about Love Connection, right? The TV dating show? If not, then
I’m old and you need to You Tube that ‘ish because it was the best dating show
ever!
Let’s talk Apps, shall we? There are sooooooooo many Apps
out there It’s overwhelming to say the least. Again, showing my age, remember
when your cell phone screen was that weird grey/green color and the phone was only
good for texting and calling? Oh! And to text you had to hit the key however
many times to get to the letter you needed? What a P.I.T.A. Man technology has
skyrocketed. I mean think about it, that was only a few years ago, now we can
have a full conversation with our phones. If you ask Siri nicely she’ll even
sing to you. But, back to Apps, we have those now and they are great! So many
of them help keep us organized, informed and entertained. I wanted to share
with you all a few Apps that I particularly LOVE so in case you aren’t familiar
with them you can check them out. A little disclaimer, I NEVER pay for Apps so
these are all free. If it’s free it’s for me….a mantra to live by.
iHeart Radio-This
one is a MUST for me. I have a good size library of music on my phone but when
you’re in the gym everyday those songs get old fast! With iHeart Radio I can
create play lists, listen to radio stations around the country, listen to
playbacks of morning shows I like or my favorite the 24 Hour Cardio Mix. Aww
yeah! And right now I’m addicted to the iHeart 90s station, its rad!
My Fitness Pal- This
App allows you to track the food you eat each day. There is a ginormous list of
foods you can choose from or you can enter your own information. It adds up the
calories for you and provides you a pie graph with a breakdown of your macros.
This app is great to help you choose the number of calories you should consume
daily based on your goal. It also helps
you see what you need to eat more or less of and gives you a place to track
your weight. It really helps me stay on track……when I use it….I’ve been
slacking.
Body Space- by
BodyBuilding.com. This App is your one stop shop for work out routines,
supplements, social media, it’s all in this App. Up until recently when I
started using a training guide from my girl crush, my American Idol, Dana Linn
Bailey, I used this app EVERYDAY. I would pick a fitness regimen and follow it
for however many weeks it ran for then choose a new one and do the same. It
keeps your workouts fresh. If you participate in the forum you can speak to
others through the App that are trying to achieve similar goals and can give you
ideas on how to succeed. You can even purchase any supplements you use right
from the App.
Digit- This App
is pretty new. Digit is an App that helps you save money. I’m horrible at
saving, not because I don’t want to or don’t know how. I have lived paycheck to
paycheck for so long I don’t ever have money to save. With Digit, it takes
money out of my checking every couple of days and saves it for me. It does so
in small increments so I don’t even feel it leave my pocket. I have had the App
since November 2016 and have already saved $300. That doesn’t seem like a lot
but that’s way more than I had.
Do you use any of these? Which one is your favorite? If you
use Body Space hit me up on there! We can be workout buddies!
Ok so lets get to the real topic....hydration. If you’re a gym rat like me then you know how important
hydration is. I drink water constantly during the day. When the water bottle is
empty I fill it right back up. But what if you just don’t like water? What if
water is just plain and gross to you? I’ve been there. Heck, I still have times
when I am so over water. It’s boring, let’s be honest. Juice or soda (if you’re
from the mid-west, Pop) are way more appetizing. But, it is what it is, your
body needs water. Being well hydrated provides your body with the resource it
needs to maintain your body temperature, remove waste and lubricate your joints
to name a few. If you really can’t stomach plain water try adding slices of
lemon, orange or cucumber. These items are natural and will add some flavor.
Also, try sparkling water. Just make sure you read the labels. Some contain
sodium which you do not need excess of. When I’m at home I drink sparkling
water because I’m over plain water by the end of the day. Try to avoid using
drink mixes. I used to be addicted to Crystal Light. That was my jam! I would
drink it by the pitcher full. I truly should have bought stock in the company.
Finally, the hubs and I decided no more crystal light. It was an effort to move
away from artificial sweeteners. He still says we probably have the crystal
light version of the black lung after inhaling the powder while mixing it in
our water. YUCK! Some additional tips for staying hydrated for you:
Always keep water
with you- whether you refill a water bottle, have an adorable reusable
water bottle, use a camel pack, keep it with you. When its empty, fill ‘er up!
Set a water schedule-
pick times throughout the day to purposely drink water and drink it!
Log it- If you
use My Fitness Pal App it has an area to log your water for the day. Logging it
will help you stay on track and encourage you to reach your goal for the day.
Man, I’m thirsty just writing all of that.
And don’t get discouraged if people question how much water
your drinking. Be proud. You’ll have awesome skin and joints when your 83 and
they won’t. so, nah!
Which brings me to final topic. People who can’t keep their
thoughts to themselves. SMH. Let me tell you, I am all for people who are out
spoken. Heck, I wish I could be more like that. I was raised to have a filter
but sometimes I wish I could just be straight forward with people. But, I feel
there should be a limit. I mean, when I was heavier I was ridiculed for being
fat. If I drank a diet coke I was made fun of for being on a diet. Now that I
eat clean whole foods, drink lots of water and exercise regularly I am still
criticized. Did I miss something? I thought losing weight and eating well would
solve all my problems but they are still there, just in a different form. Why
do people feel the need to comment on what I eat? Why do they feel the need to
comment on how much water I drink or when and how much I exercise? I don’t
question them or make comments every time they shove another donut in their
mouth or drink tons of soda or eat all the candy. For example, there is this
person at work. This person, I still can’t feel them out. One day I feel like
we’re getting along and I’m making head way. The next day this person has some
snide remark to throw my way, or tells me to be quiet or purposely
mispronounces my last name. Just the
other day we we’re having a nice conversation and then out of nowhere this
person stated that I don’t eat. This person says “you never eat. I never see
you eat. You work out but you don’t eat.” I think it was more how this person
said it that really irritated me. I advised this person that I do eat. In fact,
I eat all day. I eat several snacks and a lunch, all of which I bring. They
wanted to argue, as if they know what happens at my desk. I’m sorry if you
don’t see me bringing in fast food every day, or going out to lunch or eating
the snacks in the office. That certainly doesn’t mean I don’t eat and if my
exercising offends you well….I dunno. And it’s not just this one person. It
happens to me a lot.
To be honest, a lot of the time this makes me feel ashamed. Ashamed for eating the way I do, ashamed for working out like I do, ashamed of the amount of water I drink each day. When people continuously comment it feels the same as when I was heavier. Different words but the same affect. I feel like something is wrong with me. Why can’t I be normal? Why can’t I eat normal? I go from 33 back to 13 in a matter of minutes. If people want to know about my lifestyle or want to pick my brain about exercise, meal planning, weight loss, please! Ask away. I want to help others achieve their goals. My dream is to help others meet their physical and nutrition goals. I would love to do that full time even, but if you just want to criticize and scrunch your face at how I live my life well you better shut your mouth when you’re talking to me. I don’t have time for your negative energy.
To be honest, a lot of the time this makes me feel ashamed. Ashamed for eating the way I do, ashamed for working out like I do, ashamed of the amount of water I drink each day. When people continuously comment it feels the same as when I was heavier. Different words but the same affect. I feel like something is wrong with me. Why can’t I be normal? Why can’t I eat normal? I go from 33 back to 13 in a matter of minutes. If people want to know about my lifestyle or want to pick my brain about exercise, meal planning, weight loss, please! Ask away. I want to help others achieve their goals. My dream is to help others meet their physical and nutrition goals. I would love to do that full time even, but if you just want to criticize and scrunch your face at how I live my life well you better shut your mouth when you’re talking to me. I don’t have time for your negative energy.
Growing up my mom always tried to make me feel better by saying
things like, “they pick on you because they are jealous.” “They pick on you
because they are unhappy with themselves.” “They pick on you because misery
loves company.” While all of that may be true, if you are so miserable, jealous
or unhappy then make a change in your life. Instead of trying to take a giant
dump on mine. Change what makes you feel that way. Only you have the power to
improve your quality of life. Being critical of me may feel good for a little
while. Seeing my face turn red or tears welling up in my eyes may make you feel
less alone for a moment but it won’t change your life, it won’t right any
wrongs. Only you can do that by taking the necessary steps to rid your life of whatever
is negative and improve upon the positive.
Phew! That was a lot. Can you tell that one has been
bothering me? Mini rant, my bad. But do you feel me? Are you picking up what
I’m putting down? This happens to other people right? ::Sigh::
So to recap, Apps are cool, drink your water and if you
don’t have anything nice to say don’t say it at all.
Fun Fact: To burn off 200 calories you could chew gum for 18
hours, apply lip balm 1500 times or sing a song 23 times.
Next week is National Eating Disorder Awareness Week. So, I’ll be posting about that and how it has
affected my life. OOOOO Story time!
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